Temerity Jane
04. 07. 2012

So, Pen learned how to walk. She’s been working on it for a couple of days, but she really seems to have nailed it down this morning. It’s kind of blowing my mind. I guess I assumed that she’d take some tottering steps back and forth between me and Phil for a month or two before she really took off, but the whole process really only took a couple of days. She’s lapping the living room behind me right now. She’s getting better at it while I’m watching her. I mean that literally, and I don’t fuck around with that word. I mean, she’s learning this skill as I am watching. I am watching the improvements happening. She’s downloading some kind of system upgrade right now.

What a rotten time for her to learn, though. Pen will be having her surgery early tomorrow morning at Phoenix Children’s Hospital. Here’s a pretty decent description of what will be happening, if you’re interested.

I think we’re ready. As ready as we’re going to be, anyway. We bought her some new books, and we have some new puzzles. I got her some pajamas – real nightgowns, her first ones. That’s more for me than for her, though. I somehow got it in my head that she needed nightgowns for her hospital stay. They’re not easy to track down in her size, you know, but I found some with help. I about had a breakdown when it looked like they wouldn’t make it in time to be packed up tonight, but they showed up last night. That made me feel somewhat better. It didn’t stop the violent dry heaves, but the nervous poos seem to have abated.

I am obviously not looking forward to any part of the next couple of days, except for the part where they are over. Obviously I’m nervous about my baby having surgery, and especially about her being put under for surgery. Neither of those has really been my main focus, though. For some reason, I’ve half-convinced myself that because she’s so little and can’t really communicate, her pain won’t be taken seriously and she’ll only be given children’s Tylenol or something after the surgery. I know that doesn’t make sense, because of course no one wants a child to be in pain, and of course at a children’s hospital, they’re especially well versed in handling post-surgery children. But still, I’ve been steeling myself to channel my inner Shirley MacLaine.

The hospital stay shouldn’t be long – I’m honestly hoping for just one night, but won’t push for anything unreasonable. We’ve bought Pen her own fainting couch for her recovery at home and think she’ll do quite well here once she is safe to be away from the hospital. We just hope that will be very fast.

I obviously don’t promise anything in terms of Internet updates, the connection is kind of crappy there, from what I remember of our last stay, but if you’re a Twitter person, you can probably count on at least a quick check in once everything is all complete and we’re settled in tomorrow.

We appreciate all the support everyone has shown so far.

42 responses to “Penny gains independence only to have it yanked away.”

  1. PinkieBling says:

    Thinking of all of you, and sending good thoughts for speedy, perfect surgery, speedy, perfect recovery, PICTURES OF THE THE FAINTING COUCH OMG, and lots and lots of cake.

    On the walking: way to go Pen!! That must be mind-blowing to watch.

    On the winking: shut up I can’t even.

  2. Cayt says:

    I don’t do prayer, but I’ll be thinking of you and Pen (maybe a little bargaining with the universe).

  3. donna says:

    She’ll be a rockstar! She is, after all, your daughter.

  4. Veronica says:

    Just wrote a big long comment and it didn’t load or something, or maybe it did, but sorry if this is a repeat.

    I will be thinking of all of you, all day tomorrow.

    I totally understand your concerns about pain management, but I am sure if you think she needs more help than they do, you will set them straight ASAP. :) Penny is lucky to have you in her corner.

    Hopefully the time will go more quickly than you imagined. Then she will be lounging at home on her fainting couch, wearing a new nightgown, and getting doted on while staring lovingly at her giant giraffe.

    All the best to Pen and her entourage.

  5. Brie says:

    We’ll be thinking of Penny (and you and Phil) tomorrow. At least there will be hospital cake, right?

  6. Grace says:

    Sending good and hopeful thoughts your way! Penny is a rock star, and she will be okay.

  7. marly says:

    I’m a praying grandma who enjoys reading about Penny. She is a doll…am praying for all to go well. X0

  8. Delicia says:

    Keeping you all in my prayers, sending good vibes, and lots of virtual not-quite-touching-hugs.

  9. Melanie says:

    Sending good thoughts your way!

  10. Swistle says:

    Ack, it is VERY HARD sending a child in for surgery. The relief afterward is CONSIDERABLE and GLORIOUS.

  11. Leigh says:

    My older daughter spent a week in the hospital last fall on a feeding tube. It was horrible, and she didn’t even have surgery, so I’m sending all sorts of sympathy and prayers your way. I hope this takes care of her issues and she’ll quickly be on the road to absolute health.

  12. Nancy P says:

    Keeping you in my prayers. I love that she has her own fainting couch! I look forward to seeing pics of Penny taking advantage of it. :)

  13. nothe says:

    Good luck, will be thinking of you guys! :)

  14. shin ae says:

    I feel like such a dolt that I didn’t make the connection about why you were so very worried about when the nightgowns arrived. But of course. OF COURSE.

    I’m glad they got there. And, I hope tomorrow flies by and you are soon feeling your own “considerable and glorious”* relief.

    *Thank you, Swistle, for words. As usual.

  15. Melissa says:

    Thinking of you all. Hope the next few days go by quickly & you’re back home with a “we’ve never seen a child recover from this so quickly!” Penny.

    And Woo Hoo on the walking!

  16. H says:

    I hope you are able to find a good place to rest emotionally during this trying time. Good luck to all of you!

  17. Jennie says:

    Go Penny!! She will do great! I had no idea what a fainting couch was called and then I googled it and thought, “well duh, of course that’s what it’s called”. I love those things.

    Good thoughts in the universe for a speedy recovery!

  18. Veronica says:

    Good luck. I will be thinking of you guys.

  19. Andrea says:

    Sending happy thoughts for a speedy and successful surgery, and recovery! Penny is a rockstar, so I know she’ll do great. And you’re pretty awesome, so I know you’ll do fine too. :)

  20. Mama Bub says:

    In that last picture, she’s like, “I’ve got this, MOM.”

    Thinking of you and Pen and Phil.

  21. I’ll be thinking of you and your ridiculously adorable child tomorrow. Good luck and speedy recovery!

  22. Hayley says:

    Eat a slice of cake for me! Penny and your family will be in my thoughts. Best wishes and a million virtual hugs.

  23. Debbie says:

    Prayers are in the air for you and yours tomorrow

  24. Carmen says:

    I’ll be thinking of you guys tomorrow. It is very stressful watching your child be put under, but the relief afterward the surgery is indescribable. Hugs to all of you.

  25. Jenny says:

    Best of luck!

  26. Marwa says:

    I’ll be thinking of you both tomorrow, and wishing Penny a speedy recovery.

  27. Donna says:

    Soon you will be looking at this event in the rear view mirror. Can you hear the internet roaring its love to you all? Also, I worked with surgical patients in hospitals for many years. If they tell you it’s going to take x time, and that time elapses, and they haven’t updated you, it’s not because bad things are happening, promise. But you should feel absolutely free to ask what’s going on. They can call into the OR for an update. There will be someone who can answer the phone or an intercom and get you an update. Don’t stew in silent anxiety; ask what’s going on.

  28. Cy says:

    Good luck to you and your sweet baby!

  29. I’ll be thinking of and praying for Pen and for all of you guys tomorrow.

  30. Will be thinking of you all, that tomorrow will go smoothly for Penny and that she is home and all better soon!

  31. Elle says:

    I drive past the Phoenix Children’s Hospital every day to and from work, so I’ll say a prayer and send good vibes each time that everything goes smoothly, that Pen’s pain is managed perfectly, and that you are safe to all go home soon.

  32. Erin says:

    Thinking good thoughts for you and Penny. I look forward to your relief when it is over and wish Penny an excellent, speedy recovery.

  33. Karen Palmer says:

    By Grabthar’s Hammer – Penny will conquer all!

  34. Kristin H says:

    Good luck! I’m sending positive energy your way.

  35. Shelly says:

    Nothing but good thoughts, rainbows and unicorns heading your way.

  36. Thinking good thoughts for you and Phil and Pen – hoping it is all over in a FLASH and that you’ll be back home watching her walk around and do whatever’s next on the Penny Mastery Scale – probably driving and maybe building a robot and then winning the next national spelling bee, I’m just guessing here.

    Seriously. Good thoughts.

  37. Alice says:

    definitely sending ALL the good thoughts your way this morning! penny is a rockstar, so i anticipate her recovery to be nothing short of miraculous :)

    also MY GOODNESS she has the cutest dresses ever.

  38. Ratshag says:

    We’ll be sending out good thoughts for a quick and simple operation, and a smooth recovery.

  39. Portia says:

    Thinking good thoughts for you three today. I wish the smoothest recovery possible for Penny so she can get back to her usual schedule of being the cutest toddler ever.

  40. drhoctor2 says:

    Thinking of you all…

  41. Margie says:

    Delurking to say good luck and sending you and Penny many good vibes for the surgery today and a very speedy recovery. I have an (almost) 11 month old daughter and I can’t even imagine the anxiety and stress you must be under!

  42. Cathy says:

    Just wanted to say how relieved and happy I am for you and your baby. I hope the recovery is painless for all concerned.