While I’ve got us all in an irrational mood, let me tell you another of my little habits. If the Internet has taught me anything, it’s that no matter how strange my thoughts or quirks may be, there is SOMEONE OUT THERE who feels/does/thinks the exact same thing, or at least along similar lines.
So, how best to explain this? As I noted in another post, at night, I watch a lot of real life TV. Forensic Files, Dr. G: Medical Examiner, Medical Incredible, Mystery Diagnosis, and on and on. People die in the strangest, most unlikely ways. But what really strikes me is when they do the reenactments. You know, black and white, arty shots, no faces shown. I’m sure you’ve watched the shows before.
Often, someone has died suddenly and for no apparent reason, and the show retraces the last days or weeks of the person’s life. Obviously, while falling asleep, these things have started to seep into my brain. You know how sometimes you get a random pain, it’s nothing, just a sudden really brief headache, or maybe a sore elbow, and you just write it off? Weird pains happen to everyone. I’m 27, I’m in good health, I have no cause for concern whatsoever with occasional headaches or the fact that my ankle joints suddenly make it a pain in the ass (or… ankle?) to go down stairs recently.
But even though everyone has these occasional twinges, mine come along with something extra.
Whenever I get a sudden random pain in my head, I can hear it, what my future will be like.
“Though TJ was generally healthy, earlier in the day, she had mentioned an odd pain in her head to her boyfriend. It passed quickly and they both wrote it off as nothing. Little did she know, by 4pm… she’d be dead.”
“Writing her occasional ankle pain off to less exercise and change in climate, she occasionally took Tylenol and thought nothing of it. Since the problem never worsened, she remained unconcerned and went about her day to day life. This would turn out to be her fatal mistake.”
or, best of all:
“No one would have expected the awesomely awesome TJ had a killer lurking deep within her brain. With no outward sign, family and medical professionals alike were stunned at her rapid decline. When questioned later, her boyfriend said that she had occasionly mentioned slightly blurred vision, but nothing so serious as to contact a doctor.”
I don’t truly suspect there is an aneurism waiting to happen, or that I’m going to have a stroke (though one time? I was pretty sure I was stroking out but it turned out to just be a bunch of fireflies), or that there’s anything at all wrong with me. Still, I can’t be the only person who has these thoughts. Obviously, when a random unexplained pain occurrs, everyone’s first thought is how the narrator will appropiately voice the true gravity of the situation only realized afterwards.