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Friday, April 20th, 2012
By now, you may have figured out that I have a rather loose definition of the word “tomorrow.” However, did you maybe think that I COULDN’T post something for all of the Internet to read, even though I was just totally desperate to do so? Did you think of that? Did you think that maybe I was in the HOSPITAL? I bet you didn’t. And you know what? I WAS. So don’t you feel like a sack of cracks now?
Okay, so, I was only in the hospital from this past Sunday to Wednesday, but you couldn’t possibly have known that. So, you, sack, cracks.
You couldn’t possibly have known I was in the hospital for a couple of days, but you should have assumed that it could have been a couple of weeks, so… look, I’ve kind of lost track of how to make you come out as the bad guy here, you crack.
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Awhile back, I got a comment that just put me in a really shitty mood, the kind of “ugh, fuck it,” throwing your hands in the air kind of mood. I have comment moderation set up on my blog, but it only moderates the first time someone comments – I figure if you’re not a dick out of the gate, you’re probably not going to be. At least, probably not an intolerable dick. They tend to make clear what they’re all about right from the jump. Anyway, this is a long way of saying that the comment was caught in moderation, so it wasn’t someone I was familiar with, so you can stop worrying that you’re the one who cheesed me off, because it wasn’t you.
It’s okay if you briefly worried it was you. I think everyone does that. I do that. I mean, when you think about things in the grand scheme of it all, someone talking about one specific person probably isn’t talking about you. What are the chances? So lately I’ve been trying to make a concerted effort to not assume something is about me unless someone directly says, “Hey, ass panda, this is about you.” You know, just like… if it was me, and it was that big of a deal, the person would talk to me. So I assume it’s either not me or it’s not a big deal and whoever is just venting some steam or what have you.
But that’s hard, you know that and I know that. I mean, someone could say, “I wish six foot tall black dudes in priest collars wouldn’t say such offensive shit in Swahili,” and I would be mentally running over all of the things I have recently said that might have been considered offensive because of course that was about me.
Anyway, I’m assuring you, it’s not about you, and I’m also not saying anything about the comment itself or anything, because like I said above, I guess I want to follow the other side of the coin, too – if it is a thing, I should say something to the person involved or maybe it’s just not even a thing. And it’s not a thing. It was a first time comment, not someone who has been around here for a while, unless they used a different email address or whatever, and it wasn’t even… anything. It was a nothing. I mean, yes, it got under my skin, what with the fuck it all and throwing my hands in the air, but it wasn’t anything worth pursuing. I guess it was just a right place, right time kind of thing where it crawled right under my skin and just made me have a kind of disgust for posting at all because UGH. WHY BOTHER. HANDS IN THE AIR. ET CETERA.
Yeah, so, long story not short or relevant, I didn’t post for a while because a random one off comment from a stranger chapped my ass.
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This is going to end poorly in about two seconds:
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I had this idea that I was going to tell you a little bit about all of the books I’ve read recently, because there’s been a good number of them and a bunch of them have sucked out loud, and I’m not going to lie to you – I enjoy getting especially descriptive about all of the ways I hated a particularly terrible book. Does that make me a bad person? Well, no, probably not, though there may be other aspects of my personality that when ADDED to that fact do indeed total up to bad person, I’m pretty sure taking some delight in outlining the particular terribleness of particularly terrible books on its own is not enough to put me into the category.
But I do want to do that and I will really, truly try to do so soon, but I’m dealing with some medical situation that makes extending typing – or computering – or reading – or televisioning – or most especially OH LAWD FAST FORWARDING THE DVR FETCH ME MY YAKKING BOWL – a bit difficult.
There’s that difficulty, combined with the whole actually having said difficulties, plus some other stresses that, once again I assure you that I’m not going to lie to you, because why WOULD I, it’s not like I have anything to gain from it and besides, the TSA Blogger would probably just post video footage anyway, might delay me in posting again. I’m not well, and we’re preparing to travel next week, and remember how Big P was in the hospital last summer? We knew then that in the future it was possible some decisions would have to be made about how to proceed with her health issues, but we assumed that the future would basically never actually arrive and also that qualified medical professionals would make the decision. But the future is shockingly right now – Penny will be a year old next Sunday, do you even BELIEVE that shit? – and we’ve been tasked with choosing the course of action. And by “we,” I mean Phil and I. And by Phil and I, I mean a couple of idiots.
MAN. You know, you get married and you have a kid, and you get up every day and you go to work or you stay with your kid or whatever you want to do or have to do, and it’s basically the same day to day, and you reach a point in early actual adulthood where you’re like, “Okay, this is life. This is how it goes and we’ll just go on like this. I’m not a rock star and life isn’t a minute by minute adventure like a kid would once assume adulthood might be, but this is how it goes and how it will go and that’s all of it,” and that’s not a depressing thought at all. And I mean that sincerely. But I don’t know if I’m conveying that realization in accurate terms, but I mean the point where you realize that this is all it is – and I don’t mean, “This is all it IS?,” but this is all it is. Does that even make sense?
But I took all that time to explain that, only to say the opposite – time keeps happening and THINGS keep happening, both together. Time happens and the things happen and neither one of those happenings stops for the other. By that I mean, I’m going to lay these plans, the plans to tell you about the books I’ve been reading, but things are happening and time is marching on – A YEAR OLD, YOU GUYS – and even though this is all there is, it’s hard to make promises about something that so recently made you throw your hands in the air, all UGH FUCK IT.
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Monday, August 1st, 2011
- I’ve realized that having a kid hasn’t really left me with no time to blog, but has dramatically increased my reliance on “here’s whole bunch of unrelated points” kinds of posts. I like to write posts of 1000, 2000 words – you know that by now, Internet, and I appreciate your tenacity as you cling and determinedly troop through the most meandering and excessively EMPHASIZED paths I take to make what ends up being a very simple point.
But to write those posts, I start out with said very simple point, intending to make it very simply, but as it goes along I get more and more EXCITED about what I am saying and so DETERMINED to make myself clear that I just keep going and going and the tips of my fingers start to hurt because slamming the keys will obviously be translated and I imagine myself with my hair getting all stand uppy and maybe a little drool coming out one corner of my mouth. Blogging is not glamorous, people, except for those who make a lot of money from it and then I am pretty sure it is kind of glamorous.
So I get on these key-thumping, flailing-for-emphasis-even-though-you-can’t-READ-a-flail rolls, and it’s hard to generate such fervor and sustain it when you have to get up every 5 minutes to sing songs about butts and return pacifiers to mouths and say, “What-what-WHAAAAAAAT do you WAAAAAANT?”
- I lost my train of thought right here for a second because I had to go sing a song about butts. Also, I’ve been working on another song to the tune of “Mandy” by Barry Manilow. I sing it to Penny while I work on it. It’s about her being an only child and how I’m going to live out my dreams through her and expectations are going to be really high and good luck.
- Speaking of incredibly long blog posts? I have the August issue of Cosmopolitan sitting in front of me, you guys, and I have high hopes for tomorrow. (TJ’s Cosmo Cliff’s Notes: November 2009, December 2009, January 2010, February 2010, March 2010, April 2010, May 2010)
- You see the ad in the sidebar there for Perching at Home? I think you should check it out, and I am in no way obligated by the ad being there to tell you that. I could just take the money and say nothing, you know. But I’m not. Because I REALLY think you should check it out. Especially if you’re planning some adorable newborn pictures for your present or impending baby.
I also think you should check out the crib rail covers, because I think they’re brilliant and perfect for the type of people who have actually made a nursery for the baby, with a theme and a talent for decorating and all.
BUT NONE OF THIS IS MY POINT. And I have two points. They’re not actually points. They’re just some things I want to say.
I was talking on Twitter about the lamentability of adorable footie pajamas having such a limited lifetime, and several people suggested just cutting the feet off, except I didn’t WANT to cut the feet off. I don’t know how to brush Penny’s hair. Having the jorts of the pajama world on her is just too far into unloved ragamuffin territory for me, what with her hair frizz-waving on one side of her head and sticking straight off the other. So, Beth offered to de-feet them for me.
I KNOW I could have just cut the feet off. Just so we’re clear. I just didn’t WANT TO.
You guys – they came out SO STINKING ADORABLE.
She’s only crying because she loves them SO! MUCH!
I love these pajamas. Having them de-footed definitely extends how long she’ll be able to wear them, and stops me from going to Carter’s and buying them in the next couple of sizes, like I did with a certain dress. Also, it is kind of hard to make excuses to go to Carter’s for new clothes when it has been made very clear that the baby hasn’t grown at all.
Also, shorty pajamas are perfect for Arizona. I don’t know what you non-Arizona people would do. Socks, maybe? I am the terror of old ladies everywhere – I basically never put socks on the baby.
Look, I KNOW that YOU just cut the feet off. And that’s FINE. But should you ever NOT want to cut the feet off, but still WANT THE FEET OFF, can I suggest having this done? I told Beth when she offered to do it for me – this should totally be a service. There are neurotic people everywhere who would rather have their pajamas de-feeted than cut them or buy bigger ones. If I am that neurotic, SOME OF YOU ARE, TOO. Thus, valuable service.
BUT THIS IS NOT ALL. Beth sent along a gift for Penny as well.
I’m not saying anything else about it because I already made a REALLY good yet somehow totally underappreciated joke about it here and I don’t feel as though I can top myself right now.
I was not in any way obligated or paid to say any of this. But look. The crib rail teething covers are just beautiful. She made my baby’s head resemble a Fraggle, which makes me feel pleasantly nostalgic in the way people who grew up in the 80s and 90s like to do (and someone inevitably, ALWAYS ALWAYS, chimes in with “hey, remember slap bracelets??” Yes. We all remember those. And yes, they were banned at my school, too. And then it ALWAYS devolves into people just making lists of random shit they recall “Popples! That waffle cereal! Hypercolor!”). AND she catered to my neurosis by de-feeting pajamas. I’m not OBLIGATED to say crap. But I wanted to. Seriously. Go look at her shop, and come back and tell me what the most awesome thing you found there was.
- Last night, when I was indulging my “stories about in laws” habits (you can indulge yours here and here), I came across yet ANOTHER incident of someone telling a pregnant woman, “Oh, you won’t care once you’re in labor” with regard to having people in the delivery room.
Internet, I heard that a lot. And you know what? I CARED. My mom sat in the waiting room almost ALL DAY for TWO DAYS. She came in when I was on Stadol for an hour or so, and she came in for a good bit of Friday when I had the epidural. The idea is that the pain will make you not care about anything else, I guess, but I was NOT comfortable being observed while I was in pain. The pain absolutely did NOT make me forget – in fact, it just made me want to be left alone all the more intensely.
Even once I had the epidural and was feeling much better, I STILL didn’t forget. I had my mom leave the room for EVERY check. I woke up from a brief drifting in and out kind of nap to find her talking to the nurse and even snapped at her for talking about my medical information. Being in labor did not make me suddenly forget what a private person I am and how much I wanted privacy during labor. It only made me MORE privatey.
So if you’re pregnant and you’re telling someone how you don’t want anyone in the room, and they laugh blithely and say, “Oh, I’m going to be in there. You won’t even care once you’re in labor!” or some woman who has been through it tells you, “Honestly, you won’t care once the time comes,” you should know that those people are CONFUSED. What they’re SAYING is, “I didn’t care once I was in labor.”
And they seem to have gotten a little mixed up and ended up thinking that what happened to THEM is what will happen to YOU.
One of the most frustrating things of first time pregnancy, I think, is the number of people telling you how you WILL feel and what you WILL do and how things WILL go, based on their personal experiences alone. And it can be so aggravating to try to make your case in the face of that – to say, for example, that you KNOW that you don’t want anyone in the room – because they’ve been through it and you haven’t and they take on an annoying, smug air of “Oh, you’ll see.” And it SUCKS having to defend your points from that position. It does.
Just use this translation code from now on: When someone says “You WILL/WON’T __________,” where __________ is whatever, it’s actually just an asshole way of saying, “I DID/DIDN’T __________.” Then you can take it for what it’s worth, depending on who it is coming from.
- Also assholey? On baby forums, the response, “This must be your first baby, right?” in reply to anything deemed even slightly overprotective, from the super experienced, way laid back, “look how little I care about everything and how cool I assume that makes me in your eyes” second-, third-, etc.-, time parents. I’m not even going to go into why that’s so assholey. You should just know that it is.
- Penny had her 3 month portraits done this weekend. It was mostly a shrieking disaster just like what’s going on behind me right now. Here’s one of the pictures.
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Wednesday, April 6th, 2011
Oh my god, oh my god, I can’t deal with another day of whining about the decline of the “blogging community” without asking: who the hell do you honestly think you’re talking about?
Seriously. Who is “the community?” Who comprises “the community?”
I know you can’t possibly think you’re talking about all bloggers, everywhere.
Not even all mom bloggers (which, let’s be honest, is where the “community! community!” stomping seems to come from). Because you can’t POSSIBLY think you’re in a position to lump all mom bloggers – let alone all blogs – as part of some unified community.
So who are you talking about? People who are attempting to make money/a career from their blog or in social media? That’s a pretty – no, EXTREMELY – small portion of bloggers, when you think about it – which you haven’t.
Or maybe bloggers who attend the same conferences and events that you do – again, very small group.
Or maybe bloggers you associate with on the regular. But you can’t mean them, because then you’d be lecturing to your friends, when it isn’t your friends who are the problem, it’s the other people.
So, who all is this “community?” You’ve got to have some kind of defined group in mind when you start worrying about the decline of “the community,” or else, what are you even talking about?
What I find hard to imagine is a way in which “community” can be defined such that it makes sense for a person – ANY person, because it has been SO many different people at different points in time – to climb up onto their soapbox and lecture about how “the community” needs to behave in order to prevent the INEVITABLE AND VERY CLEARLY IMPENDING destruction of “the community.”
I mean, before I can accept anyone as a voice for “the community” and an authority on “WHAT WE ALL NEED TO DO TO STOP THIS,” I need to know who that person thinks they’re talking to.
My “community,” I think, is built around my own specific site, and it would be ridiculous for me to ever think otherwise, because what the hell do I even have in common with any larger group?
So this here is my community, and you’re reading this, so you’re probably part of it, and you already know – I pretty much rule this shit with an iron fist. I’ve got no shame about it – this is my place and it’s my way or up yours.
And I’m a member of other communities, the central hub of which would be a certain blog or blogger, and I participate, but certainly wouldn’t think to speak for THOSE communities, because I’m not the boss of them, but I enjoy horsing around in and with them because they suit me.
And then, of course, there are more loosely formed communities of like-minded, like-humored or just liked people I hang about with on Twitter or what have you – I think you’d refer to those people as my friends and I certainly wouldn’t think to stand up and lecture them about how we all need to behave as a group, because, uh, come on.
I can speak for me and govern my own behavior. I can wave my little e-scepter around and tell people on this site – part of this community for which I write all the words and pay all the hosting – what shit is going to fly and what shit isn’t and change the rules by the day, IF I felt like it, which I usually don’t. I can control my own behavior – after all, I’m an adult who can decide these things – when I participate in other communities, and the heads of THOSE communities and other members can welcome me in or kind of shoulder me out, in a weird Internet Darwinism where the non-fitter-inners are eventually excluded by mutual, “eh, it isn’t working out” kind of decision. On a similar note, as an adult, I can also turn away from behavior I don’t care for, weed it out of my OWN community, or not participate in communities that engage in behavior I don’t like.
Behavior I don’t like – not behavior “the group” has decided is an unliked behavior because WHAT FUCKING GROUP?
But do you know how many blogs I read? A LOT. Too many for me to draw any kind of unifying “community” between them as a whole, and certainly too many for me to elect myself The Boss of Appropriate Conduct and try to “fix” what is wrong with a whole bunch of things that don’t really have anything in common to begin with.
And I read a LOT of them – and I bet you do, too – and that’s not even CLOSE to all of them! I mean, I realize the big trend right now is to whine about how blogging has changed and all of that, but surely people realize that their experience is not the universal experience? ESPECIALLY with something as diverse as blogging? There are 4 jillion blogs out there – you don’t read even a notable fraction of them, if you’re being honest with yourself, so how can anyone at all speak with any authority about “community” and how the behavior of some is ruining the experience of others?
What community! Who are you talking about!
If something is going on that is ruining “the community,” I think that to solve it, first you need to decide what exactly it is that you consider to be “the community.” Then, think about why you feel you’re in a position to govern the behavior of “the community.” Is it because you pay for or write the site the community is focused around? Is it because you feel like everyone needs to ensure that your experience is as molded to your own personal needs and expectations as possible? Is it because you have some kind of god complex? Is it because traffic was low this month and you needed to stir something up?
Is it because you haven’t realized the world is changing around you and you’re completely out of touch with what “community,” as it relates to blogging, actually is and your own authority within it?
Look, just get back to me when you’ve decided WHO the community is and WHY you think that you need to lead the charge to fix it.
Until then, I don’t think anyone really has any place to speak for or about “the community.”
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Friday, April 1st, 2011
1. Allow someone else, or a group of someone elses, determine what “successful” means for you.
2. Try to imitate exactly what they do, because, after all, they’re the ones who decided what successful is, so they must have something going on there. Bonus points if you imitate their tone and topics so closely that people have to continually check their feed reader titles to remind themselves what blog they’re reading.
3. Scour the Internet for blog posts from successful bloggers indicating that they are going to tell you how to be successful, too.
4. Hide your justified outrage when the “advice” turns out to be vague, ridiculous, touchy feely, insistent that “success” isn’t defined by money even when you know damn well that’s how they’ve defined it for themselves and they know that’s what you’re there to read about.
5a. Accept the fact that you will never be given actual instruction on how to secure the same sponsors, take the same trips, get into the same ad networks, make the same kind of money, or anything like that – at least, not in the posts by those who are promising to tell you how to be successful.
5b. Learn to know and love the term “link bait.”
6. Participate in endless circular discussions with those who fit the prescribed definition of successful, bemoaning how blogging has changed, how no one comments anymore, how there are no more bloggers who don’t want to be a business or a brand and how sad that is for all of us, posing hypothetical solutions on how to fix it, but realizing that no one really cares to fix it.
7a. Become confused at the rigid refusal of participants in these conversations to acknowledge the fact that there are FOUR SKRILLION AWESOME BLOGS AND BLOGGERS who are not brands or businesses but are carrying on doing their thing, with comments and discussions and vibrant communities and hilarity, but don’t really bother pointing that out, because no one cares, because their blogging experience has changed, therefore everyone’s has.
7b. Also become confused about why people keep initiating conversations about money, but no one is actually ever willing to talk about money, except for those who are, but don’t be seen associating with those who are, because we (the general Internet “we”) don’t like people who do that, and call them trolls, but not the real kind of Internet troll – instead, we now use troll as “someone who says something that we don’t like even if they’re not doing it anonymously or in any kind of attacky way.”
7c. Remind yourself of 5b.
OR?
TODAY ONLY! You can only see it here - Temerity Jane’s Spectacular Instructional on the ONE SINGLE WAY to EVER Become a Successful Blogger.
1. Start a blog.
2. Write shit.
3. KEEP WRITING SHIT.
4. Find people who write shit you like.
5. Make friends with them and interact in whatever way floats your boat – Twitter, Facebook, blog comments, whatever.
6. KEEP WRITING SHIT.
7. Seriously. Keep going. For years.
8. How to build an audience: Write shit people like. For a long ass time. Well past the time when you first assumed people would start listening to you.
9. How to make money: Find someone who has some, tell them you write shit people like, and ask them if they’ll give you some of their money. Repeat until you have some money and are also no longer even remotely phased by the word “no.”
10. Stop listening to people who tell you how to blog or how to be successful. Steps 1 and 2 are it. Unless you want to be a mom blogger. Then, before Step 1, have a baby. Bam.
I’m testing out Step 5b from the other plan. If you hate what I’ve said, you can tell yourself I’m a troll and not successful. That will surely hurt my feelings. Let’s all have a deep discussion about this and pat each other on the backs and then not change anything. Then we’ll regroup right here in a year and do the whole thing over again.
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Wednesday, March 2nd, 2011
First of all,
Of course that’s not the same picture from 28 weeks, which was actually a picture reused from 27 weeks!
Can’t you tell? The text is a different color and so is the hat!
Yeah, okay, it’s the same picture, but look, I highly doubt Garlic Bread is going to grow up disappointed that she doesn’t have a week-by-week photo retrospective of my belly to pore over in her teen years. Besides, we are working on the world’s largest collection of ultrasound images of baby feet. They’re going to be a whole chapter in her baby book, we have so many.
I’m kidding, I’m kidding.
I’m not going to make a baby book.
Anyway, 29 weeks. It is no major milestone, but it is another week, and every additional week is a good week, as they say, or as they would say, if they were on bed rest with an enormous ass cramp and were trying very hard to be all glass is half full and shit.
As for the actual non-photographed belly, it remains roughly that shape and size (okay, it’s bigger), and the only real notable difference is that while it’s big and round when I lay flat, if I lean forward, the sides of belly pull back to reveal a distinctive and frankly kind of disgusting lump, which can only be properly described as BREAD BUTT. Each night, I go through the ritual of lotioning up the Hut (because you guys, oh my heavens, my skin is TEARING APART and everyone knows that pregnancy gives stretch marks but there is BURNING AND ITCHING), and once it is lotioned, I lean forward and watch the Butt Lump appear, shriek in horror, poke it, demand Phil poke it, try to press it down, and then lean back and forth a couple of times, demanding that Phil watch Garlic Bread’s ass threaten to make a break for the surface.
Oh, did I mention that she turned head down? I doubt she’ll stay that way, because she’s kind of a turd, but at the moment, she’s properly positioned.
Dear Garlic Bread,
This is the only time in your life that “face down, ass up” is even remotely appropriate.
Your pals,
TJ and Phil
Oh, speaking of talking about inappropriate things in relation to your child, we were getting ready for bed last night, and Phil was telling me that he had been talking with someone about only children, and how it can be hard to be an only child because the kid could end up feeling like all of our hopes and dreams are pinned on her, and it can be stressful.
TJ: Well, I really only have one hope and one dream for her, and they can actually be kind of lumped together in a single hope/dream hybrid. “Stay off the pole.”
Phil: Word. I can get behind that.
TJ: Unless she’s like, really talented.
Phil: Um… even then.
2. Remember a couple of days ago when I was all, “My lunatic dog is too well trained and he only wants to sleep where we trained him to sleep, what do we dooooo?”
Yeah, so, the night of the day I wrote that post (uh, what?), he wandered around, all confused, sticking his face on the edge of the bed, wondering why everyone was just laying around when Sheldon was still so clearly free to play with us, he ran into the living room, he came back, he checked out each side of the bed again to make sure Phil and I weren’t dead, and then laid down on the floor and went to sleep.
Last night? Same thing. And he’s waited for Phil to get up, carried on his same morning routine, and gone back to sleep on the floor until I get up. He and Brinkley are sharing a pillow right now, even, but I am pretty sure that this blog has had enough “pictures of my dogs sleeping because I have nothing else going on” for this week.
Well. Thank you for all the help and advice on that post. I wrote 2000 words about this enormous problem that solved itself less than 12 hours later. I sure feel like my Butt Rust time is being used productively now.
3. The other day, I posted an unfunny joke and titled the post something about how I’d write a book about bed rest, but I will not write such a book and I will not write any kind of book ever.
There was this thing in the newspaper about Dooce, and the comments were all dismissive and dumb, as you’d expect, and there was all this outrage among some bloggers about “how daaaare people call blogging stupid” and what not, and I’m not going to even get into the idea that so many people seem to be missing the fact that the majority of the world does not read nor give a shit about blogs at all, and getting all huffed up about it is kind of ridiculous.
But I did notice a whole lot of the “bloggers are writers and they write because they have to” lines popping up, along with the “I write for myself, not for anyone else” stuff, and I have to say while that’s all well and good for the people who believe that, not all bloggers fit into those statements.
For one thing? I have never considered myself to be a writer. I think a writer is trying to do something with what they write and works on what they write and tries to make it into something good, whereas I will not edit, refine, critique or restyle anything I do here, I will just continue to throw down words until I hamfist my point RIGHT INTO YOUR FACE, because in my mind, I am not writing, which is a THING that is DONE with skill and intent, but I am TELLING YOU STUFF.
There’s a difference there, for me, at least.
And I’m not saying that bloggers aren’t writers. I’m saying that I’m not a writer, so to insist that bloggers are writers who write because they must is most definitely false.
I have never ONCE IN MY LIFE sat down with a pen and paper, or laptop and blank document, as the case may be, to write a story or a poem or a novel sketch or a creative bit of ANYTHING simply for my own enjoyment or to exercise my neeeeeds as a writer. I don’t even LIKE TO WRITE. I like to tell you things.
And the importantest part in that sentence would be the you part, because while there’s a whole lot of “write for yourself!” and “I do this for me, not for hits and an audience” people out there, I am not one of them. If you guys were not here, I would not do this. Seriously. I do not write for myself. If I wrote for myself, I’d have a journal tucked under my pillow or some shit. This is the Internet. It’s out here, publicly. It’s for you guys.
And I’m not saying that like, “I do this selflessly! As a gift!”
Oh, no. There is definitely some (LARGE) level of selfishness in it. Absolutely. I get something out of it (like all those recipes the yesterday, I AM BLOWN AWAY once again, y’all, and if you’ll recall, I can say y’all because my CERVIX IS THE LENGTH OF TEXAS!). But I’m not writing because the passions of my soul need to be expressed or I will simply burst, no matter if anyone reads it or not.
You BETTER read it, because I am TELLING YOU THINGS.
Seriously, if I could just gather you all at my house and just say this stuff, I would. But my house is very small.
What I am saying is, I can buy into the fact that some bloggers are writers, and write because they must, whatever that means, but not all of us, because some of us don’t even want to be. And I am also fully admitting that I do NOT buy into the “I write for myself” line, because if you’re putting it on the Internet, it’s not for yourself, not wholly, anyway.
In summation:
Some bloggers = writers.
Some bloggers = TELLING YOU THINGS.
(Both are okay. But not necessarily the same.)
(In REsummation, I’m uncomfortable with being called a writer when I have no desire to be and do not fit my own personal definition of what a writer does and why they do it, so stop lumping all bloggers together as ALSO writers, because I want to be JUST A BLOGGER and I think that’s ok.)
4. You see the blanket in this picture?
When I was about 5, I think, just before I started kindergarten, my parents moved from Scranton, PA to a suburb just outside of it called Clarks Summit, where there was a better school district. My parents let my sister and I choose our own bedroom furniture, wall paper and paint, carpet colors and bedding when we moved into the new house. Their own living and dining room stayed empty and unfinished (as in, a hole in the ceiling with no light fixture in the dining room) for more than 10 years, but I got to pick out my own canopy bed from Ethan Allen and everything. I picked out a white eyelet bedding set with a matching canopy, and refused to sleep in my new bedroom until “my bed’s roof” was delivered. I was kind of an asshole.
Anyway, that’s the same blanket, right there. It’s 25 years old, and when Phil and I visited my parents for Christmas a few years ago, I had hauled it back with me. It has mostly served as a solution to the problems detailed in this post.
This picture makes more sense if you read the post.
I love that blanket. It’s the perfect weight for everything and the perfect size for proper bundling, as I am a life long blanket-and-pillow mountain kind of sleeper. However, it is TWENTY FIVE YEARS OLD. It is gray. It has held up well, but not that well.
So, the other day, Phil went to Target and he got me a new blanket. I thought there was more to this story when I started telling it, but I guess there really just isn’t.
He also bought me a 5 pack of men’s 2 XL v neck cotton undershirts, because while all of my current t-shirts are fine for standing up and being all tight around my big Hut (see above photo), laying in bed leads them to creeping up and exposing my purple striped belly, and I look like a big fat flamboyant tiger. I cut my hair short right after the wedding and it’s had time to grow out to an obnoxious length at this point, and there’s nothing I can do about it, so I’m a big, round lady with an “I’ve given up” messy topknot of hair, wearing oversized men’s shirts and pajama pants. I take pictures of and talk about (and to) my dogs all day, in between doing logic problems and fill ins puzzles.
None of that has anything to do with anything, I just thought you’d like a visual to go along with me TELLING YOU THINGS, so this would be more like you coming to my house and me just telling you instead of writing.
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Friday, January 14th, 2011
You guys! Do you remember this day last year? When I asked you to guess what day it is, but then I didn’t actually let you guess but told you what day it was because, let’s be honest, “guessing” wasn’t one of your best skills last year?
Well, you guys have really worked hard over the last year, and I admit, your guessing skills have gotten much better, but I have Eggos in the toaster and it’s really important that I eat them AS SOON AS POSSIBLE, so I don’t really have time to wait for your (improved! really! gold star for you!) guessing skills. So once again, I’m just going to tell you what day it is.
Hooray! Delurking Day! The day you are LEGALLY OBLIGATED, by Internet law, to stop just peering through the curtains and actually SAY something. Now, ideally, once the ice was broken by your comment today, you’d be free of your shyness shackles and comment with abandon all over the Internet, but this is not an ideal world so I understand if that doesn’t happen. But I do have to inform you that the law says that you have to comment today.
Last year, I did my own Delurking Day Survey, to make coming out of hiding a little bit easier, so that you didn’t have to feel pressure to come up with anything witty or brilliant all on your own. Plus, since the survey is all about you, it takes care of the problem that some non-commenters site – that every time you go to say something, someone else has already said it.
That’s basically the story of this entire blog, but does that stop me? NO!
Anyway, here is the survey. The whole Internet is demanding you delurk today, Internet, and I’m making it easy on you with a simple survey for you to fill out. Do other blogs treat you this good? No, I bet they don’t. That’s why if you delurk on one blog today, it should be mine. Not that it’s a vote or anything. It’s just that you might only have time to comment on a few, or maybe just one. Would you like a cookie or to borrow my Slanket? How can I make you comfortable? Comment on my blog.
Anyway! Since last year’s survey worked so well, I’ll be using it again. Even if you’re not a lurker, you can fill it out, and even if you filled it out last year, you should fill it out again this year, so we can all sit together on the deck in those obnoxious thick-necked sweaters, drinking beer and wines we’ve chosen not because we like them, but because we think they’ll be impressive to those we’re with, and laugh through big fake smiles about how much we’ve grown, while we run our hands over the carefully pressed front-creases in our jeans!
The TJ Delurker Survey, 2011:
1. What’s your name, and how long have you been reading this site?
2. Do you have a blog and/or a Twitter name and/or something else we should all read today? If you don’t have one yourself, you can tell us about someone else who is deserving of our eyeballs today.
3. What is your favorite song right now? I am going to go listen to it and tell you what I think. No pressure.
4. Is there anything I haven’t covered or answered but I should have, but you couldn’t tell me that because you were busy lurking?
5. Are you a lurker everywhere, or is it just my blog? I’m going to guess everywhere, because it’s not like you’re intimidated by all my medals or anything. THOUGH YOU MIGHT BE! Because I have actually WON SOME MEDALS since the time I wrote the question last year! So, for the first year in the history of my 12+ years of blogging, “INTIMIDATED BY MEDALS” is a valid reason for not commenting!
6. Tell me something really weird or unusual about you. That will take care of the whole “every time I want to say something, someone already said it” thing.
7. Recommend something. A book, or a movie, or a flash game, or a friend of yours as a really excellent person, or a valid career path, or a little known parenting strategy, or a super clever cleaning tip or trick, or incredibly helpful organizational tool, or the best socks you’ve ever owned. This is your moment to SHINE, Internet.
So there you have it! It’s Delurking Day, and while I understand that many people lurk because they have nothing to say, or someone already said it, I have created a SURVEY for you so that you know that you definitely have some things to say that I am interested in hearing. Last year, I spent the entire day attempting to respond to 100+ comments, listening to all the songs, and I think I did a reasonably good job of it. I intend to do the same this year. So old commenter or new commenter or “commented once a long time ago and then never again” commenter or never commenter, come out of your bushes and fill out my survey.
I offered you my SLANKET. You HAVE to.
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Monday, November 8th, 2010
So, since I’ve announced that I have an internal baby and will, at the end of this process, have an external baby, I’ve kind of felt obligated to write about it. By “it,” I’m not exactly sure if I mean the baby or the pregnancy, but since there has been such an uptick in traffic since I let you in on the state of my uterus, I feel like there must be something that people are waiting for me to say or talk about.
Unfortunately, I just don’t have much to report on either front. As far as the baby goes, the only thing it has actually done so far was give us the Mr. Hankey wave on the ultrasound, and as soon as the doctor was out of earshot, Phil and I gave each other a wave and said, “Hiiiiidey hooo!” So, if I was to tell you something about the baby, it would be that so far, it reminded us of an animated piece of Christmas poop. And the Internet tends to get its collective nose all out of joint when someone refers to their kid as a butt head or an asshole or anything other than a precious gift from above, so I suppose starting out with talking crap comparisons would not be an auspicious beginning.
And then there’s the pregnancy, and a lot of you have been pregnant before. You know that I don’t really have much going on here at just about 13 weeks. I mean, it’s in there, I’ve seen it, but I don’t feel it moving or anything. I was keeping the whole thing a secret during what I hope were some of the most wretched days, so I can’t really regale you with tales of my misery. Aside from being generally tired (sleeping 10-12 hours a night these days), I feel pretty okay. OH, EXCEPT? I never, ever used to burp. I mean, ever. I never even learned how to burp on command. And now? I burp all the time, and it cracks me up every time. I’m having a small moment of delayed childhood here. I have discovered burping.
So, to sum up – talking poop, burping a lot.
What I have done, however, is come up with my one and only hard and fast rule for Internet Interaction for the duration of this whole project, and by “project,” I just mean the pregnancy, because I totally reserve the right to make up all kinds of new stuff once I have the kid.
Now, everyone knows that the Internet likes to offer advice. And everyone knows that the Internet likes to disagree. And everyone knows that the Internet thinks that your perfectly functional way of doing things is somewhat inferior to their way of doing things, and will suggest their way even if you have written a glowing post about how absolutely fantastic your way is.
After over 10 years of blogging, I am finally ready to just accept that and try (TRY) to keep the grumbling to a minimum. After all, the Internet has had, like, a billion babies, and probably has three or maybe even four or five good ideas and pieces of information that I may need or want.
So I’ll deal with advice and information, no matter how NOT SO KINDLY OFFERED it may be at times, and no matter how poorly concealed the writer’s disdain for my baby-raising tactics may be, as long as we can all agree to this one rule for the rest of the pregnancy:
If I ever say that I’m tired. Or that my head hurts. Or that I don’t have enough time to do something. Or that Phil and I are going to do something fun.
YOU CANNOT SAY TO ME:
“You think you’re tired now? WAIT TIL THE BABY COMES.”
“You think that’s pain? WAIT TIL THE BABY COMES.”
“You don’t have enough time? WAIT TIL THE BABY COMES.”
“You think you’ll always have time for fun? WAIT TIL THE BABY COMES.”
I know. I KNOW. Let’s all agree right now that we – we ALL, including ME – know that when the baby comes, there will be less of everything except for poop and messes and exhaustion. That life will be different and as a deliberately pregnant adult, I have willingly signed up for that change in my life.
Offer advice, tell me how you did things, give me the benefit of your mistakes and experiences – fine. I am totally reading all of that. No matter how much I disagree with someone’s advice or how much I think that their kid is probably going to end up a sociopath, I will at least be polite.
As long as my ONE RULE is followed.
Don’t tell me that WHEN THE BABY COMES I will be MORE tired
or have LESS time
or make MORE sacrifices
or NEVER ENJOY LIFE AGAIN AS LONG AS I LIVE.
Because I know. I KNOW.
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